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Wednesday, September 06, 2006


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i bare my tears in front of you...
u hurt me the 3rd time la...
1st time i cried to sleep upon knowing that you would not let me go
to my band oversea trip..
2nd time
i told u...i made the effort of translate all the main points
of going to the oversea trip in chinese
although i suck at it...but cant help i am desprate to go..
today the 3rd time..
linda rush me to get an answer from u whether i can go a not
i dont have the courage to look into ur eyes and see you...
i bear my tears...my heart is pouring out...
okay...its like everyone is waiting for my answer whether i can go a not la..
and it is almost everyone going...expect me
now you told me a crazy lame answer wad
u have to find money...
i told u edusave will pay...
but i dont know wad u r thinking lahx...
i bite my teeth just to talk to you...
so my voice will not sound weird
that why i give u a er...erm...hmm..
u tell me u wish to let me go...
but ur expression dont look like...
u ask me to give u a veri good answer
so u can let me go...
i go into my brainstomp to look for answer
i cant think of any cause u have the answer i wanted to say
i ask my dearest senior amanda for answer
she give me the answer is already wad u have say...
and eles u want...

okay i know i did not put my whole heart into piano so fore...
and it might have made u angry...
but ...u think i do not want...
sometimex i have the urge to quit it
and tell u that i dont like it..
but i cant...cause all the money for exam fee and lesson fee will be
waste...i do not mind if i pay the whole trip myself..
as long as i got ur consent of letting me go..
i wanted to run the endless road to get out this problem
which i yesterday told myself if i fail
to let u let me go
i ran away from home..for that moment then later come back
but i know u dont take my treaten
I DONT WANT TO HAVE DINNER WITH YOU TONIGHT!!!
tears are dropping when i write this post...
i do not know why...
i face problem at school is already give me a headache
social problem from not being to social to ppl
being a racist to malays..
having problem in basic of piano
even though i am grd 5
facing problems in the band
and now u r adding the stress and bunden for me!!!!
why life is so unfair...
i have the urge to jump down from the building
just to make you regret..but wad the point..
everything i tried is just no use!!!!!!
life is being so unfair..
if we could be the show cast of freaky friday
when we both switch into each other...
u and i will know how each other is facing

i been keeping too much inside me..
and now i just pour everything out..
wad the use to tell u all my problems
when u r the one adding one and one on me

and trust me for being so good that i keep ur dirty secert from mum
which i know wad i did
of peeping through ur another phone is a bad idea
but no choice..
that time i have the urge to tell mum abt it..
but i do not want to have a broken family
so i keep ur secert..just for you!!!!!

i wonder who have call yesterday during 10p.m and yet u did not talk and just listen to the phone..
but....i have no choice..
if...u really dont let me go...i will be not talking to u
for the 3 days...
and my mum and sis and whoever it is..

simply think that u ruin my 1 AND ONLI LIFE TIME TO GO OVERSEA WITH THE BAND!!!!
THE SPENDING OF TIME WITH THE BAND!!!!

I WANT A ELDER SIS SO AS TO POUR EVERYTHING OUT TO HER..
BUT TOO BAD...I AM THE ELDEREST
IT IS SO STRESS AND BUNDEN TO BE THE ELDEREST!!!!




SHERMINE
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Wednesday, September 06, 2006